Today was a kind of really strange day. Not that I had to get up early in the morning for working ... somehow I am used to it to work six days a week and having problems to get enough sleep during the week.
No... I don't know what it was that bothered me, maybe the unfriendly people who comes along the whole day trying to proof my patience.
Whatever it was it makes me feel really lonely and lost. I got a feeling that I am all alone and everything I will do or try to do will not take effect to change it. I think I don't have to mention that this made me sad ... Still now I am not really cheered up and I am exhausted trying to get rid of that feeling ... hmmm I hope writing down some words can help to feel a little better ...
... I think I know the right word... useless
Ich werd die Welt wohl nie verstehn. Nicht im kleinsten Ansatz ... -_-